15 weeks pregnant

I had a Drs appointment on Thursday. It went okay. I know that the risks in a twin pregnancy are way higher than a singleton pregnancy, but it is still scary to hear it come out of your Drs mouth. She wrote me a note to stop working for the rest of this pregnancy. I am sad to stop working, I love my job, but I know it is for the best. Nothing is really wrong right now, the stopping work is more a preventative thing. I am overweight and that combined with the extra weight of 2 babies can put a lot of pressure on the cervix. I need to lay down as much as possible to save wear and tear on my cervix. I also have a history of high blood pressure. I take readings at home and it is always fine, but at my appointments, after a long day at work, it is often higher than it should be. The Dr said No exercise, No cleaning, No standing for long periods, No stress. I am not on bed rest yet, but she did mention that it is likely I will be before the end of the pregnancy.

I have started feeling "quickening" more often now. I have no idea which baby it is moving in there, but it feels kind of cool. I can't wait until I can feel actual kicks and punches. Even better will be when I (and other people) can feel them from the outside.

I have an ultrasound in a month (March 16th) and I can't wait to see the babies again. I find myself focusing on all the things that can go wrong instead of being positive and enjoying this pregnancy. Seeing the babies a few weeks ago, and hearing that everything looked perfect made me feel so much better for a few days. After the ultrasound in March I will get to see them more often on ultrasound. I am looking forward to that.

I think I need to stop watching TV. My favorite soap, Coronation Street, has the loss of a pregnancy at 30 week as its main story line this week. I just have to keep reminding myself over and over again that it isn't real. Also I watched Grey's Anatomy and Private Practive and one of the story lines involved a pregnant Mom, who almost lost her baby. Another story line involved a Mom who was freaking out with Post Partum Depression. Too many things on TV can make me worry. I know things can go wrong, but I have this desire to live in a bit of a bubble for now. I just can't handle hearing about bad things without letting them worry me.