Saturday, December 27, 2008

A Poem

This is a poem someone sent to me a year or 2 ago. I found it gave me strength at times when I needed it.


I Will Be A Wonderful Mother - By: Author Unknown

There are women who become mothers without effort,
without thought,
without patience or loss,
and though they are good mothers and love their children,
I know that I will be better.

I will be better not because of genetics or money or because I have read more books,
but because I have struggled and toiled for this child.

I have longed and waited.

I have cried and prayed.

I have endured and planned over and over again.

Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to attain their dreams.

I will notice everything about my child.

I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore, and discover.

I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life.

I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing that I can comfort, hold, and feed him and that I am not waking to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot or cry tears of a broken dream.

My dream will be crying for me.

I count myself lucky in this sense; that God has given me this insight, this special vision with which I will look upon my child.

Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child that God leads me to, I will not be careless with my love.

I will be a better mother for all that I have endured.

I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor, friend, and sister because I have known pain.

I know disillusionment, as I have been betrayed by my own body. I have been tried by fire and hell that many never face, yet given time, I stood tall.

I have prevailed.

I have succeeded.

I have won.

So now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from their pain in order to save myself discomfort.

I see it, mourn it, and join them in theirs.

I listen.

And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely.

I have learned the immense power of another hand holding tight to mine, of other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept the harsh truth when life is beyond hard.

I have learned a compassion that only comes by walking in those shoes.

I have learned to appreciate life.

Yes, I will be a wonderful mother.

4 comments:

  1. That is incredibly powerful, Nella. You WILL be a fabulous mother. In fact, you are already a fabulous mother as you nuture your unborn child. I am at a loss of words when it comes to describing my excitement for you. You deserve this, Nella. May God continue to bless you each day.

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  2. How true that is! I felt that way since i had gone through a lot to get Matthew. I loved and cherished Thomas but it was so much different with Matthew! I can't describe it. You will be a wonderful, caring mother Nella. I am exciting to hear about your pregnancy as it progresses!

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  3. brings tears to my eyes. i feel this way every day with clay. and you will, too, with your LO. what a miracle!

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  4. That was awesome!! You will be an awesome mother. I am so excited for you. What a miracle and blessing children are.

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